Adventure Time

This may be news to some of you, but I am an absolute sucker for cartoons; whether they’re made for children or adults. I’m a 26 year old, I swear πŸ˜‰ but Adventure Time always holds a special place in my quirky little heart. It kept me company for a long time when I was at my most unwell. It cheered me up on my lower days. It made my imagination even more vivid + wild. And for that, I’m incredibly thankful. So here’s my current (and very colourful) collection of AT graphic novels/comics

Is there a particular TV show or film that is extra special to you? If so, what it is and why? ☺️ I’d love to hear from you guys!!

Adventure time, c’mon grab your friends… ❀️

Another spontaneous trip!

Hey hey bloggerinos πŸ™‚

So you might recall one of my last posts: when I actually did something spontaneous. Shock horror, it happened again! This time me and le boyfriend headed off to Petersfield to mooch. We were greeted by an apparent summer festival going on which was a nice bonus! Lots of market stalls, music, a vintage car show. It was VERY busy and VERY warm but I didn’t feel anxious or overwhelmed; I soldiered on and didn’t get grumpy in the heat either.

After that, we decided to head to the coast as it would (hopefully) be cooler 🀞🏻 luckily, once we’d gotten through the traffic, Hayling Island actually had some sort of breeze. HALLELUJAH. We ate ice-cream on the beach. We people watched. We then stared in awe as an eery sea mist/fog started rolling in and we were pretty much certain it was the end of the world. I even heard someone say ‘I bet it’s because of Donald Trump’ πŸ˜‚

This is becoming a habit now, people! And whilst I still love making plans etc, winging it is pretty cool too 😎

Until next time, folks.

Kelsey x

Something unusual happened

Watch out; there’s a positive progress post about to drop. Brace yourselves.

Yes. I did a thing. A thing that I have barely managed for YEARS.

I WENT OUT TWO NIGHTS IN A ROW 🀯😱πŸ₯³

I know. I’m just as shocked as you are right now. Mouth agape and everything. To most people this is just what a social life is, something normal that they don’t even register as a big deal. But for this little spoonie? This little spoonie who’s been ill for nearly NINE years? It’s hugeeeeeeee. I also haven’t crumbled into a heap with payback either *touches wood incessantly* 🀞🏻🀞🏻🀞🏻 AND when you add into the mix that I’ve struggled with social anxiety since I was a teenager, it’s even more awesome. Both nights were fairly big group things; meals, pub, that sort of vibe. I didn’t freak out. I wasn’t nervous. I rarely felt self-conscious or worried that I wasn’t talking enough. I just let myself be me + enjoy it.

I hope you’ve done something lately that made you proud too!

Kelsey x

I’ll be back soon!

Hello to all you fantastic folk out there 😊 sorry I haven’t managed to post for an absolute AGE. I’ve been pretty busy actually which is something I’m still not used to πŸ˜‚

I’m currently having a rest day as my body is all screwed up from my birthday zoo trip yesterday. But it was TOTALLY worth it! I’ll likely do a post with some photos soon, but for now, I’m just checking in to say I’m all good (relatively speaking) and will be back soon.

See you soon.

Kelsey ✌🏻

CBT news

Here comes a positive post, people. Positive post warning.

So I’ve been having high intensity CBT for over a year, which I genuinely can’t remember if I’ve mentioned before. Gulp. Anyway! You now know. It was mainly targeting my various anxieties and depression, but we also discussed phobias and stress etc. I’ve had regular CBT before but was sadly unable to get the most out of it due to my health being much worse. And I actually think that the regular type wasn’t really going to work for me anyway. As an added bonus, the high intensity CBT is ongoing for as long as you need, without needing to be referred by your GP again and again. Three cheers for avoiding that annoyance.

My counsellor was absolutely legendary. I know it’s his job but I could tell that he genuinely cared about the people he sees. I had no trouble opening up and being honest either. It was all very relaxed whilst still providing all the help I required.

Here comes the positive news…

After reducing the regularity of my appointments, I was officially discharged as of the 3rd of April!! πŸ™‚ It’s been stressed as well that I can start up my sessions again at any time in the future if the situation arises, which is a great reassurance for my little brain.

I’m unbelievably grateful that I had access to such a life-changing form of therapy. And I’m beyond grateful that it actually worked for me. I’m honestly in the best place I’ve been for years. So I’d like to say a huge thank you to the wonderful NHS. And, in a strange way, a thank you to myself for embracing and fully committing to the whole process. I’ve got my proud face on and I’m wearing it joyously.

Stay positive, safe and be kind to yourselves.

Kelsey x

Progress Report!

So, this is quite an exciting post! Last weekend, I attended a wedding; the ceremony, the sit-down meal, the reception. I managed ALL OF IT. And not only that, the journey to the venue as well (around an hour)…and I still coped with that too. Back at my most ill, that would genuinely have been inconceivable. Or not even my most ill either actually. It was amazing to be able to be involved without having to go home midway through. I squeezed in a couple of decent rest breaks, just to keep myself at some sort of functional level. But I 100% did it. Any payback was worth it.

Oh and an additional achievement: I was able to watch a proper firework display without holding my ears or flinching constantly!

LOOK HOW HAPPY I WAS

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2019: goals, plans + dreams

Afternoon my friendly readers! I hope you’re all keeping okay.

As time marches on, it’s important to remind yourself of what you’ve got lined up for the coming year; and head towards anything you would like to do. For me, the main overall and ongoing goal is to keep my health stable, or possibly see it improve slightly. Besides this however, I’m hoping to:

  • Complete more free online courses
  • Battle some anxieties I am yet to beat
  • Keep up with my social life
  • Read more (currently nearly finished my SIXTH book of the year so far. My goal is around 70 for 2019)
  • Write more poetry
  • Give less f***s

And as for things I know are coming up this year or will be planned soon:

  • A wedding
  • Going to visit my dad in his new house
  • Short break with my boyfriend
  • My 26th birthday

So it’s not an extensive list at this point. But for little old me who’s been stuck in chronic illness limbo for over 8 years? I’m still getting used to actually making and having plans!

Don’t let the bastards get you down.

Kelsey x

2018 round-up

I’m back!

So it’s been a little while since my last post; mostly due to a very busy festive period. But I thought I best get back in touch before 2018 comes to an end, just to reassure you all that I’ve not drowned in alcohol or collapsed under the weight of all the Christmas goodies I’ve received.

I don’t really have a plan for this post. Well, I’ll pretend that I do and hope nobody notices. Maybe I’ll recount some of the goals I’ve achieved this year? Maybe some anxiety victories, health milestones and general improvements? Ah I don’t know! My ‘no plan’ plan is unravelling before my very eyes…let’s try and salvage something, shall we? Or else I risk ruining my blogging reputation for all eternity.

GOT IT! I’m going to list 5 words to describe my year. Yes let’s do that thing.

  1. Positive
  2. Enriching
  3. Creative
  4. Unexpected
  5. Sociable

I’d say that’s a pretty decent list and a fabulous way to describe an equally fabulous year. Here’s to 2019!

Happy New Year from my home to yours.

Kelsey xxx

Happiness

Happy doesn’t always mean a smile

It can be quiet, unassuming and shy

It doesn’t have to show on the outside

Like unhappiness doesn’t mean we cry

We feel it inside us, deep in our soul

Contentment, bliss, peace and glee

It could be from family or our friends

Or maybe it’s from the sky and the sea

Whatever the source may be for you

Enjoy the moment, the sound, the sight

For our happiness may not last forever

We must grab it and hold it tight

Things I’ve Made #1

I made my first ever gluten free crumble. Apple and pear filling with cinnamon. So delicious and coeliac friendly πŸ™‚

I’ll be trying to post photos of my gluten free bakes and meals *but* they won’t usually include a recipe as I use ones I’ve found online anyway. It’s more just to showcase the fact that I can now do more of what I enjoy; plus it’s food and I love eating food. Food is life. Life is food. FOOD FOOD FOOD 😍

Now here’s an important question: what do you have with a crumble? I will pretty much always choose ice-cream as I simply LOVE the hot and cold combo. But my mum and stepdad insisted on custard, which I do like, but ice-cream is king with crumble.

Bon appetit!

Chef Kelsey x