Something unusual happened

Watch out; there’s a positive progress post about to drop. Brace yourselves.

Yes. I did a thing. A thing that I have barely managed for YEARS.

I WENT OUT TWO NIGHTS IN A ROW 🤯😱🥳

I know. I’m just as shocked as you are right now. Mouth agape and everything. To most people this is just what a social life is, something normal that they don’t even register as a big deal. But for this little spoonie? This little spoonie who’s been ill for nearly NINE years? It’s hugeeeeeeee. I also haven’t crumbled into a heap with payback either *touches wood incessantly* 🤞🏻🤞🏻🤞🏻 AND when you add into the mix that I’ve struggled with social anxiety since I was a teenager, it’s even more awesome. Both nights were fairly big group things; meals, pub, that sort of vibe. I didn’t freak out. I wasn’t nervous. I rarely felt self-conscious or worried that I wasn’t talking enough. I just let myself be me + enjoy it.

I hope you’ve done something lately that made you proud too!

Kelsey x

Reading, reading and more reading

As some of you know, the Goodreads app allows you to set a yearly reading goal, aka the number of books you aim to get through in a year. Before I got my PS4 a few years back, I was easily reaching 70+ or so. But once the gaming addiction kicked in, that went right out the window! I know, I know. I betrayed my beloved books.

HOWEVER, this year, I made a deal with myself: because there were no PS4 games I was eager to play ASAP, I stopped playing on it. Full stop. Ideally, this will mean that, when I introduce gaming time again, I can cope with only an hour or so a day without feeling like I’m missing out. So far so good. I’ve not played anything for weeks. And the impact on my reading goal? I’m halfway through my 24th book of 2019…so it seems that I’ll absolutely SMASH my goal of 70 🙂

Unite, bookaholics, unite!!

Just Me

Whirring thoughts

Busy mind

Imagination

New ideas to find.

Quiet times

Loud times too

Picky with company

Means I cherish you.

Barriers will fall

Patience is key

I leave my shell

And truly be me.

I am who I am

Quirky till the end

Introvert girl

Immature friend.

Some think me distant

Aloof, even rude

Untrue and false

I’m not in a mood.

Unique and myself

Perfectly me

Those who look closer

Are the ones who’ll see.

Judge at your peril

The introvert crowd

We are what we are

Reflective and proud.

Understanding an Introvert

Howdy folks!

Now, I imagine you’ve all heard of introverts and plenty of you are probably reading this right now. *INTROVERTS UNITE* Ahem…anyway. For those of you who are unsure, an introvert is someone who is generally very inward focused; honing in on feelings and emotions rather than outside stimulus. They also tend to feel incredibly drained after socialising so need time alone to recuperate or ‘recharge’. It is not the same as being shy or socially anxious. Many introverts enjoy meaningful socialising. They will likely just limit it. But again every introvert is different and will have different traits and levels of introversion. This next list is basically traits and behaviours that I myself have and have experienced. Frankly they are all very common among the introvert community but I think a more personal twist on it will help it all be more informative. Commence!

The Social Recharge

This is 100% me and I can’t deny it. Whilst I generally enjoy socialising (and even meeting new people…well, one to one, still not keen on big groups), I need to rest and recharge after; time to just do my own thing. Looking back, I’ve been like that for as long as I can remember. I’ve always set aside a day or two after socialising to relax at home and bask in the glorious solitude. I see people everyday as I live at home with my mum and stepdad. But I don’t count seeing them as actually being sociable. I don’t have to be socially ‘on’ with them. I think people have a tendency to underestimate the importance of the social recharge for introverts. It’s something that we simply have to do. Whilst extroverts gain energy from being around lots of people, introverts lose it. And that’s okay. It’s just how we are.

We enjoy solitude

Pretty self-explanatory really. For us introverts, activities and hobbies we can do alone are PERFECT. Personally, I adore reading, gaming, being amongst nature and around animals, writing, cooking, baking and photography. Also, these are the things that will help an introvert feel revitalised after a busy outing.

Self awareness

We think about ourselves and our own experiences..a lot. As a result, we know ourselves inside out. But at the same time, we’re always wanting to find out more and explore other avenues and topics.

Quality over quantity

I’ve often heard people assume that introverts outright don’t like people. This is simply not true. We are not antisocial or people haters. We just have a small circle of close friends. And we choose our friends much more carefully.

Learning by observing

This is a trait that I’ve had since I was at nursery. Honestly I kid you not. My mum recalls times where, upon given a new task or something I hadn’t encountered before, I’d watch others until I knew what to do. I’d observe, absorb and take in all the information and cues until I was confident I could do it myself.

Just text instead

I don’t like phone calls. Fact. If they’re totally necessary, I have to psych myself up for it. Okay so I can phone my parents without any worries. But anyone else, I’d rather just text or email.

Don’t mistake it for rudeness

And also don’t take it personally. If I don’t want to see anyone for a while, it’s because I need that time to get my battery up and running again. It’s not because I don’t like you or appreciate your company. I just don’t have the energy to socialise all the time. Give me that little break in-between and I’ll be okay in a day or two.

I could probably go into way more detail and whatnot, but frankly my hands are getting tired from all the frantic typing. But I will leave you with these relevant photos and this little nugget of wisdom:

Introverts don’t seek solitude to get away from you; they seek it to get back to themselves. – Me, just now

Kelsey x