Belated birthday blog

Hello again folks 😊

I promised you a post about my birthday trip out, so here it is!

As an animal lover, I opted for a day at the zoo, without any hesitation. Me and le boyfriend ventured onwards, with much anticipation and excitement in the air. I shan’t bore you with a detailed itinerary or an exhaustive list of every animal we saw; but instead, it’s all about the highlights and snapshots. Enjoy!

Hungry hungry hogs
BABY GIRAFFE πŸ¦’
monch monch monch
sploot
teeny weeny sea lion!
Beautiful elephants ❀️🐘
Rhino buddies
Trevor and Tulip the miniature donkeys

Freestyle #2

We see the world the way we want

Rose-tinted glasses or the skeptics shades

Optimist, pessimist and realist alike

Perceive and analyse, fitting their views

Good or evil, grey area morals

Ethics for some but foreign to others

Perhaps our realities aren’t the same

Parallel but never to entwine

Marching onwards in shared time

But never sharing the who, what or why

I’ll be back soon!

Hello to all you fantastic folk out there 😊 sorry I haven’t managed to post for an absolute AGE. I’ve been pretty busy actually which is something I’m still not used to πŸ˜‚

I’m currently having a rest day as my body is all screwed up from my birthday zoo trip yesterday. But it was TOTALLY worth it! I’ll likely do a post with some photos soon, but for now, I’m just checking in to say I’m all good (relatively speaking) and will be back soon.

See you soon.

Kelsey ✌🏻

I did something (sort of) spontaneous

Hello hello my wonderful readers

A very positive post today so three cheers for that news! So, Thursday is the day I usually see my amazing boyfriend (I know you’re probably reading this so don’t get too much of a big head) πŸ˜‰ we had no idea what to do last week, or even a time when we’d be free. Fast forward to midday and we’re sat in his car, still deciding what to do. So we just went for a drive and put our thinking caps on. And where did we end up? The beautiful coast πŸ’™

Our first stop was somewhere for food as I was absolutely starving, bordering on ‘hangry’…not something anyone wants to witness or get on the wrong side of. I googled gluten free for where we were and ta-dah! A new cafe was discovered; and it turned out to be lovely. Earl grey tea with lavender was my drink of choice, even though I’m an avid coffee drinker. A gluten free toastie was on the menu as well. Nomnomnom delicious sustenance.

After we’d filled up on savoury food, I was led to an ice-cream place on the beachfront, guided by le boyfriend. And oh my gollygosh I was not disappointed. I was craving proper ice-cream man ice-cream; classic Mr. Whippy. But this place? This place had FLAVOURED Mr. Whippy options!! Strawberry, mint, chocolate, caramel, banana. And best of all? You could swirl flavours together. I opted for traditional vanilla and, probably my all-time favourite ice-cream flavour: mint. It was all swirly and beautiful and I stupidly forgot to take a photo for proof as I was too preoccupied with stuffing my face.

We ate our sweet treats whilst overlooking the beach and enjoying the glorious sunshine. Oh and dogspotting too because dogs are pure happiness and love. We rummaged around the stony beach to find some shells which were pretty abundant. And two hollowed out (nicer way of sayimg they’d been devoured and digested) crab shells which I found strangely fascinating.

On the drive home, I connected up my Spotify to blast some mostly old school tunes from our school days; cue us shouting along to Mr. Brightside with the windows wide open.

If that’s not an awesome and slightly spontaneous early summer day, I don’t know what is β˜€οΈβ€οΈ

My dainty cup of Earl Grey tea with lavender
Just look at that πŸ’™
Couldn’t resist bringing a few of these beauties home with me 🐚

John Wick: Chapter 3 – Parabellum

Okay so this is TOTALLY not my usual sort of post, but hey ho. I’m rarely able to get to the cinema these days because of my ongoing struggle health-wise so a trip to the movies is always a nice treat πŸ™‚

Now, I’ll admit that I’m a sucker for action films; also pretty much anything gory too. Love a good fight sequence, car chase, explosion, shootout. You get the idea, right? I hadn’t managed to see the previous two John Wick films in the cinema so was determined to do so with this; plus my boyfriend was super keen to watch too so happy days all round! Boy oh boy was it a belter of a film (just as the other two were to be totally frank) πŸ‘πŸ» I honestly couldn’t believe the speed in the fight scenes. Fists, legs, guns and swords everywhere. Or pretty much anything they could get their adrenaline fuelled hands on *thinking of one item in particular but won’t spoil it because I’m a considerate blogger*

How was that for a vague film review/hype-up? I’m very proud of myself right now. And on that note, I’m going to melt into a knackered heap and get some much needed shuteye.

Au revoir, avid and beautiful readers

Kelsey x

Bring the right thing

Some people bring the sunshine

Others bring the rain

Some people bring both at once

The joy and the pain

Some people want what’s best

For you and all their kin

Others only see themselves

Their selfishness kicks in

What is it that you bring

To other people’s lives

Sunshine full of kindness

Or rain that drives and drives?

Bookworm Q&A

Just a little light-hearted, book related post for this Sunday evening…

*DISCLAIMER* I’m not shaming anyone who enjoys any of the authors or books mentioned. Everyone has their own taste and that’s what makes the world such an interesting place.

BOOK I DISLIKE: The Boy in the Attic by David Malone

BOOK I LOVE: Salem’s Lot by Stephen King

BOOK I THINK IS OVERRATED: Pride and Prejudice, To Kill a Mockingbird, Twilight…

BOOK I THINK IS UNDERRATED: Ritual by David Pinner. Almost unheard of but a fantastic read

BOOK I COULD READ ON REPEAT: Anything by Edgar Allan Poe, especially The Raven

BOOK THAT MADE ME FALL IN LOVE WITH READING: The Jiggy McCue series by Michael Lawrence + The Measle Stubbs series by Ian Ogilvy

BOOK THAT CHANGED MY LIFE: Lord of the Flies by William Golding

GUILTY PLEASURE: I don’t feel remotely guilty about anything I read or have read and neither should you

MORBID CURIOSITY GENRES: Basically anything about the Holocaust, concentration camps etc. Also true crime, especially serial killers like Jack the Ripper

BOOK I SHOULD HAVE READ BY NOW BUT HAVEN’T: Lord of the Rings by JRR Tolkien. I have the trilogy in one HUGE book but find it so daunting, even though I know it contains 3 books!

LONGEST READ: My paperback copy of It by Stephen King was over 1,300 pages and it’s still the longest book I’ve read to date

BOOKS CURRENTLY OWNED: According to my Goodreads account, it’s 161, which is predominantly made up of my ‘to be read’ collection

BOOKS READ SO FAR THIS YEAR: 34 and almost halfway through number 35. My goal for the whole year is 70 so I’m pretty chuffed with my progress so far

New Forest road trip

Hello again!

As the weather is now turning back to what you’d expect here, I’ve been reflecting on the lovely weekend I had. Saturday was relaxed with a small veggie BBQ. Nomnomnom. And Sunday involved a trip to one of my favourite places: the New Forest πŸ™‚ me and my fantastic boyfriend headed off to the wildlife park first. My excitement was pretty blatant and I’m not ashamed. I squeeed, I gasped and I almost cried with the sheer cuteness of what I was witnessing. Teeny weeny harvest mice chowing down on gigantic slices of apple. Otters juggling stones and squeaking nonstop with their buddies. And two ADORABLE newborn European Mouflon lambs. Luckily my boyfriend is an animal lover too and is also pretty accustomed to my reaction when something is hella cute. Don’t tell anyone, but he turns into a squealing mess when he sees alpacas πŸ˜‰

Then a random drive around was on the cards; hunting out any picturesque or intriguing places on our way. A brief trip to a deer sanctuary was suggested, although by this time I was knackered, so sadly we couldn’t stay long 😦 although we did utilise the presence of a Mr Whippy ice-cream van and it was glorious in the 24Β°C heat. Eating PROPER ice-cream, outdoors, in April, in England? Would you believe it?

And for those of you who are silently urging me to post some photos, I wholeheartedly oblige.

OH AND I COMPLETELY FORGOT. One of the keepers was casually walking around with a blanket in plastic box. Colour me intrigued, I went over and lo and behold, a HEDGEHOG snoot did appear from under the blanket. It turns out his name was Bryan and he’s Leucistic; he lacks multiple types of pigments, but still had the dark eyes you’d expect. Basically, he looked like a blonde/slightly speckled light brown hedgie instead of the dark brunette you’d imagine for a European hedgehog. Great. Now I’m imagining hedgehogs in different coloured wigs. Sadly I didn’t get a photo as I was far too busy coping with my heart almost melting inside me.

CBT news

Here comes a positive post, people. Positive post warning.

So I’ve been having high intensity CBT for over a year, which I genuinely can’t remember if I’ve mentioned before. Gulp. Anyway! You now know. It was mainly targeting my various anxieties and depression, but we also discussed phobias and stress etc. I’ve had regular CBT before but was sadly unable to get the most out of it due to my health being much worse. And I actually think that the regular type wasn’t really going to work for me anyway. As an added bonus, the high intensity CBT is ongoing for as long as you need, without needing to be referred by your GP again and again. Three cheers for avoiding that annoyance.

My counsellor was absolutely legendary. I know it’s his job but I could tell that he genuinely cared about the people he sees. I had no trouble opening up and being honest either. It was all very relaxed whilst still providing all the help I required.

Here comes the positive news…

After reducing the regularity of my appointments, I was officially discharged as of the 3rd of April!! πŸ™‚ It’s been stressed as well that I can start up my sessions again at any time in the future if the situation arises, which is a great reassurance for my little brain.

I’m unbelievably grateful that I had access to such a life-changing form of therapy. And I’m beyond grateful that it actually worked for me. I’m honestly in the best place I’ve been for years. So I’d like to say a huge thank you to the wonderful NHS. And, in a strange way, a thank you to myself for embracing and fully committing to the whole process. I’ve got my proud face on and I’m wearing it joyously.

Stay positive, safe and be kind to yourselves.

Kelsey x

Stop The Stigma

Let’s get right to it: there should be NO stigma or shame attached to taking antidepressants, anxiety meds etc.

It really gets to me that there’s still people out there who see them in such a negative light. Yes the medications may not help everyone and in some cases can make symptoms worse. But for all those people that they help? They are genuinely a lifesaver. Nobody should be made to feel bad about taking meds for depression and other mental health issues. So, let’s get a few things straight…

  1. Antidepressants do NOT make you weak or any less of a human
  2. They don’t cause ‘fake happiness/feelings’
  3. Taking them isn’t anything to be ashamed of. Fact
  4. Some people need them indefinitely and that is okay
  5. Others take them for shorter periods and that is okay too
  6. They enable you to cope with life
  7. And, in my case, they simply allow me to be 100% me
  8. I’ve been taking antidepressants since autumn 2010 and don’t regret a single tablet
  9. I will take them for as long as I need and don’t give a shit if that’s months, years or decades
  10. You don’t know everyone’s story or what’s going on in their minds, so you have no right to make a judgement on that which you know nothing about
  11. Some people choose other alternatives to medication, but that doesn’t mean their issues are any less severe or debilitating
  12. And medication isn’t the first option for these issues. Doctors will recommend self-help first, counselling etc. And if those don’t help, then pharmaceutical avenues will be explored
  13. Why is it that with a number of ongoing physical conditions, taking medication long-term is never questioned, but for mental health, some people suddenly get in a tizzy about it? You wouldn’t tell a diabetic that they didn’t really need their insulin. So why is someone with long-term depression for example any different?

Basically, don’t be a dick about it. Educate yourself, do some research. And if you still have nothing positive, helpful or supportive to say, keep it to yourself