Adventure Time

This may be news to some of you, but I am an absolute sucker for cartoons; whether they’re made for children or adults. I’m a 26 year old, I swear πŸ˜‰ but Adventure Time always holds a special place in my quirky little heart. It kept me company for a long time when I was at my most unwell. It cheered me up on my lower days. It made my imagination even more vivid + wild. And for that, I’m incredibly thankful. So here’s my current (and very colourful) collection of AT graphic novels/comics

Is there a particular TV show or film that is extra special to you? If so, what it is and why? ☺️ I’d love to hear from you guys!!

Adventure time, c’mon grab your friends… ❀️

Another spontaneous trip!

Hey hey bloggerinos πŸ™‚

So you might recall one of my last posts: when I actually did something spontaneous. Shock horror, it happened again! This time me and le boyfriend headed off to Petersfield to mooch. We were greeted by an apparent summer festival going on which was a nice bonus! Lots of market stalls, music, a vintage car show. It was VERY busy and VERY warm but I didn’t feel anxious or overwhelmed; I soldiered on and didn’t get grumpy in the heat either.

After that, we decided to head to the coast as it would (hopefully) be cooler 🀞🏻 luckily, once we’d gotten through the traffic, Hayling Island actually had some sort of breeze. HALLELUJAH. We ate ice-cream on the beach. We people watched. We then stared in awe as an eery sea mist/fog started rolling in and we were pretty much certain it was the end of the world. I even heard someone say ‘I bet it’s because of Donald Trump’ πŸ˜‚

This is becoming a habit now, people! And whilst I still love making plans etc, winging it is pretty cool too 😎

Until next time, folks.

Kelsey x

I’ll be back soon!

Hello to all you fantastic folk out there 😊 sorry I haven’t managed to post for an absolute AGE. I’ve been pretty busy actually which is something I’m still not used to πŸ˜‚

I’m currently having a rest day as my body is all screwed up from my birthday zoo trip yesterday. But it was TOTALLY worth it! I’ll likely do a post with some photos soon, but for now, I’m just checking in to say I’m all good (relatively speaking) and will be back soon.

See you soon.

Kelsey ✌🏻

I did something (sort of) spontaneous

Hello hello my wonderful readers

A very positive post today so three cheers for that news! So, Thursday is the day I usually see my amazing boyfriend (I know you’re probably reading this so don’t get too much of a big head) πŸ˜‰ we had no idea what to do last week, or even a time when we’d be free. Fast forward to midday and we’re sat in his car, still deciding what to do. So we just went for a drive and put our thinking caps on. And where did we end up? The beautiful coast πŸ’™

Our first stop was somewhere for food as I was absolutely starving, bordering on ‘hangry’…not something anyone wants to witness or get on the wrong side of. I googled gluten free for where we were and ta-dah! A new cafe was discovered; and it turned out to be lovely. Earl grey tea with lavender was my drink of choice, even though I’m an avid coffee drinker. A gluten free toastie was on the menu as well. Nomnomnom delicious sustenance.

After we’d filled up on savoury food, I was led to an ice-cream place on the beachfront, guided by le boyfriend. And oh my gollygosh I was not disappointed. I was craving proper ice-cream man ice-cream; classic Mr. Whippy. But this place? This place had FLAVOURED Mr. Whippy options!! Strawberry, mint, chocolate, caramel, banana. And best of all? You could swirl flavours together. I opted for traditional vanilla and, probably my all-time favourite ice-cream flavour: mint. It was all swirly and beautiful and I stupidly forgot to take a photo for proof as I was too preoccupied with stuffing my face.

We ate our sweet treats whilst overlooking the beach and enjoying the glorious sunshine. Oh and dogspotting too because dogs are pure happiness and love. We rummaged around the stony beach to find some shells which were pretty abundant. And two hollowed out (nicer way of sayimg they’d been devoured and digested) crab shells which I found strangely fascinating.

On the drive home, I connected up my Spotify to blast some mostly old school tunes from our school days; cue us shouting along to Mr. Brightside with the windows wide open.

If that’s not an awesome and slightly spontaneous early summer day, I don’t know what is β˜€οΈβ€οΈ

My dainty cup of Earl Grey tea with lavender
Just look at that πŸ’™
Couldn’t resist bringing a few of these beauties home with me 🐚

Bookworm Q&A

Just a little light-hearted, book related post for this Sunday evening…

*DISCLAIMER* I’m not shaming anyone who enjoys any of the authors or books mentioned. Everyone has their own taste and that’s what makes the world such an interesting place.

BOOK I DISLIKE: The Boy in the Attic by David Malone

BOOK I LOVE: Salem’s Lot by Stephen King

BOOK I THINK IS OVERRATED: Pride and Prejudice, To Kill a Mockingbird, Twilight…

BOOK I THINK IS UNDERRATED: Ritual by David Pinner. Almost unheard of but a fantastic read

BOOK I COULD READ ON REPEAT: Anything by Edgar Allan Poe, especially The Raven

BOOK THAT MADE ME FALL IN LOVE WITH READING: The Jiggy McCue series by Michael Lawrence + The Measle Stubbs series by Ian Ogilvy

BOOK THAT CHANGED MY LIFE: Lord of the Flies by William Golding

GUILTY PLEASURE: I don’t feel remotely guilty about anything I read or have read and neither should you

MORBID CURIOSITY GENRES: Basically anything about the Holocaust, concentration camps etc. Also true crime, especially serial killers like Jack the Ripper

BOOK I SHOULD HAVE READ BY NOW BUT HAVEN’T: Lord of the Rings by JRR Tolkien. I have the trilogy in one HUGE book but find it so daunting, even though I know it contains 3 books!

LONGEST READ: My paperback copy of It by Stephen King was over 1,300 pages and it’s still the longest book I’ve read to date

BOOKS CURRENTLY OWNED: According to my Goodreads account, it’s 161, which is predominantly made up of my ‘to be read’ collection

BOOKS READ SO FAR THIS YEAR: 34 and almost halfway through number 35. My goal for the whole year is 70 so I’m pretty chuffed with my progress so far

New Forest road trip

Hello again!

As the weather is now turning back to what you’d expect here, I’ve been reflecting on the lovely weekend I had. Saturday was relaxed with a small veggie BBQ. Nomnomnom. And Sunday involved a trip to one of my favourite places: the New Forest πŸ™‚ me and my fantastic boyfriend headed off to the wildlife park first. My excitement was pretty blatant and I’m not ashamed. I squeeed, I gasped and I almost cried with the sheer cuteness of what I was witnessing. Teeny weeny harvest mice chowing down on gigantic slices of apple. Otters juggling stones and squeaking nonstop with their buddies. And two ADORABLE newborn European Mouflon lambs. Luckily my boyfriend is an animal lover too and is also pretty accustomed to my reaction when something is hella cute. Don’t tell anyone, but he turns into a squealing mess when he sees alpacas πŸ˜‰

Then a random drive around was on the cards; hunting out any picturesque or intriguing places on our way. A brief trip to a deer sanctuary was suggested, although by this time I was knackered, so sadly we couldn’t stay long 😦 although we did utilise the presence of a Mr Whippy ice-cream van and it was glorious in the 24Β°C heat. Eating PROPER ice-cream, outdoors, in April, in England? Would you believe it?

And for those of you who are silently urging me to post some photos, I wholeheartedly oblige.

OH AND I COMPLETELY FORGOT. One of the keepers was casually walking around with a blanket in plastic box. Colour me intrigued, I went over and lo and behold, a HEDGEHOG snoot did appear from under the blanket. It turns out his name was Bryan and he’s Leucistic; he lacks multiple types of pigments, but still had the dark eyes you’d expect. Basically, he looked like a blonde/slightly speckled light brown hedgie instead of the dark brunette you’d imagine for a European hedgehog. Great. Now I’m imagining hedgehogs in different coloured wigs. Sadly I didn’t get a photo as I was far too busy coping with my heart almost melting inside me.

Stop The Stigma

Let’s get right to it: there should be NO stigma or shame attached to taking antidepressants, anxiety meds etc.

It really gets to me that there’s still people out there who see them in such a negative light. Yes the medications may not help everyone and in some cases can make symptoms worse. But for all those people that they help? They are genuinely a lifesaver. Nobody should be made to feel bad about taking meds for depression and other mental health issues. So, let’s get a few things straight…

  1. Antidepressants do NOT make you weak or any less of a human
  2. They don’t cause ‘fake happiness/feelings’
  3. Taking them isn’t anything to be ashamed of. Fact
  4. Some people need them indefinitely and that is okay
  5. Others take them for shorter periods and that is okay too
  6. They enable you to cope with life
  7. And, in my case, they simply allow me to be 100% me
  8. I’ve been taking antidepressants since autumn 2010 and don’t regret a single tablet
  9. I will take them for as long as I need and don’t give a shit if that’s months, years or decades
  10. You don’t know everyone’s story or what’s going on in their minds, so you have no right to make a judgement on that which you know nothing about
  11. Some people choose other alternatives to medication, but that doesn’t mean their issues are any less severe or debilitating
  12. And medication isn’t the first option for these issues. Doctors will recommend self-help first, counselling etc. And if those don’t help, then pharmaceutical avenues will be explored
  13. Why is it that with a number of ongoing physical conditions, taking medication long-term is never questioned, but for mental health, some people suddenly get in a tizzy about it? You wouldn’t tell a diabetic that they didn’t really need their insulin. So why is someone with long-term depression for example any different?

Basically, don’t be a dick about it. Educate yourself, do some research. And if you still have nothing positive, helpful or supportive to say, keep it to yourself

Holibobs πŸ–οΈ

Guess who’s going on a mini break tomorrow?!

THIS GIRL

Can you tell I’m excited? I might be. Just a little bit though. A teeny weeny bit. Not only that, it’s in one of my favourite places, although I won’t reveal that info until I get back and can shower you all with photo upon photo.

See you on the flip side (aka in a few days)

Kelsey x

A weird sort of gratitude

When you think back to being a child, what were your dreams? Where did you want to be by the time you were your current age? If you look at your life now, does it match up? The chances are that, no, it doesn’t. That may because you changed your mind. It might be because of a missed opportunity. Or maybe it’s because of a lack of funds. But for me and others in similar situations? It’s beyond our control. Illness has taken us down a different path. It’s bumpy, muddy and downright treacherous. But we have no choice but to keep following it. Getting ill at 17 and thinking that I’ll be 26 in June? Yeah that’s pretty scary. I still live at home. I’m still reliant on others. I’m still unable to work or study. This sort of scenario would never have crossed my mind as a teenager, let alone as a child. It wouldn’t have been on my radar. You think about getting a job, falling in love, going into space or being a princess. You don’t think about being housebound, wheelchair bound or all the doctor’s appointments.

But at the end of it all, it is what it is. I may not have the career I wanted, but I’ve realised that’s not important. I’ve found my creativity and my love of expressing myself. I may not live independently, but I’ve got a loving and supportive home. I may not be where I wanted to be as a child, but I’ve seen the oh so many options that I didn’t perceive before. And most of all, I’ve found myself. I’ve discovered what I truly value + what I really want from life.

And in a strange way, I genuinely thank my illness for that

2019: goals, plans + dreams

Afternoon my friendly readers! I hope you’re all keeping okay.

As time marches on, it’s important to remind yourself of what you’ve got lined up for the coming year; and head towards anything you would like to do. For me, the main overall and ongoing goal is to keep my health stable, or possibly see it improve slightly. Besides this however, I’m hoping to:

  • Complete more free online courses
  • Battle some anxieties I am yet to beat
  • Keep up with my social life
  • Read more (currently nearly finished my SIXTH book of the year so far. My goal is around 70 for 2019)
  • Write more poetry
  • Give less f***s

And as for things I know are coming up this year or will be planned soon:

  • A wedding
  • Going to visit my dad in his new house
  • Short break with my boyfriend
  • My 26th birthday

So it’s not an extensive list at this point. But for little old me who’s been stuck in chronic illness limbo for over 8 years? I’m still getting used to actually making and having plans!

Don’t let the bastards get you down.

Kelsey x